The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd; the longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else; dissatisfaction with the world’s existence. all these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.

we’re so close to the end, and it’s really scaring me. just thinking about all these important people in my life leaving and the possibility that I’ll never see them again makes me so sad. I can’t even express how fucking happy I am to have met these people and how they have impacted my life and made me the person I am today. I’m so grateful for all the people in my life, so fucking grateful.